I needed to write this to get it off my chest.
Do it.
Meeting me may have been such a change. Seeing something different. You're beautiful inside. Let others see that. What you do is fine, but lay off it a while. There's such an amazing life ahead of you.
You left.
I'm not sure how to rate the quality of our friendship. You come and you go and you expect me to pick up where we last left off. Because of you, another friendship of mine has flourished, yet it also became a chore. I wish I could let you go, but I'm not sure how to do it. I hope my future doesn't involve you.
Breathe.
Have you ever actually sat down and thought about how fantastic you are? We've been friends for quite some time now, and honestly, I don't know much about you. I do know what's bringing you down, what you hate about people, and what you wish you could have. I'm scared that when we part for life, I'll never be able to look back and smile at all the wonderful times we spent together.
Joy.
I'm sorry our friendship could start as soon as you wanted to initiate it. It was a bit too late afterward, but what we were able to establish, I'll never forget. Thank you for being the marvelous person during my childhood. Let's always keep in touch.
Uncertainty.
All this time, I've thought that you were the one that would inspire me to change my life. Recently, I've found out that I was wrong. I know better now. Thank you though, for happy memories that others were unable to offer me.
You've grown.
In my eyes, you've parted yourself from all of us. I do understand, but at times I wish you would choose to spend time with me. Perhaps one day I'll fully comprehend the stage you are in now. I'm sorry if I've pushed you away, but you're one of the few who actually know who I truly am.
I found you.
One day, I wish I could tell you that I lied. What you do, I do as well, but I'm so ashamed to confess. The difference is, you take initiative. When I think about you, I tear up. I'm so glad you came into my life. Please don't ever leave.
Art.
You're a replica of whom I grew up with. I was hurt recently. As much as I tried to forget about it, and move on, no one could make me happy. I spent a block with you, and I forgot about everything and moved on. You're wonderful.
Inspiration.
You're a blessing in my life. Remember that. Our lives are different, and we live it accordingly. One day, I hope to show you what you helped me accomplish. I wish the best for you this upcoming lunar cycle.
Choices.
Sometimes, I wish we could trade places. You have the life I wish I could. In a year, I'll have that life. I hope it doesn't turn out like yours.
Cynicism.
Perhaps you don't understand the positive impact you've had on my life. I used to be rather cold and reserved. You made my inner "humane-self" bloom, and now, I'm a more compassionate person.
Second Place.
I used to think that I was better than you. Now, the tables have turned, and the joke is on me. Thank you for making me feel every human emotion possible. Although not all were good, they helped me form the person I am today. Best wishes to the life we have ahead of ourselves. I miss you.
My Reminder.
You motivate me. It hurts me inside all that you can do, and I can't. I believe that we have the same potential, but I never can reach the standards you place. At times it may seem that I don't care about you, but I do! The friendship you've offered is so unique. I'll miss it once college is over.
Derision.
I probably rolled my eyes the first day I met you. You played with my mind; our humor is fairly similar. Every time I see you, I start to smile. Please say good bye before you leave. I'll feel very resentful if you choose otherwise.
Idiot.
That's what you are: an idiot. As harsh as it is, I'm still jealous of you. I know you'll make it farther in life than me.
Avoidance.
You're really irresponsible. You're REALLY self conscious. I usually avoid people like you, but I've make an exception to that rule. I'm not sure why you are this way. Our friendship is filled with small talk - the obvious. That's what I love about it. You allow me to forget about reality.
Different.
I try to be as defensive as I can around you. I need to let that go. If not, you'll never know the real me. You make me hate the life I have, but I know you don't mean it. Maybe one day you'll understand me for whom I truly am. Even so, you make me feel whole. Everything I need to feel to keep living.
Complete.
Culture, interests, and even our parents' occupations - we are identical on so many levels. I used to believe that I was drastically different than those around me. I was ashamed of myself, and worst of all, my family. It was drastically hard to befriend me, and I'm aware of it. I'm so grateful that you insisted. Because of you, I've learned to love myself.
Time.
I used to think you were the one person I couldn't do without in life. I remember making plans of the future we would have. With time, I think we've both realized that we weren't meant to have anything. You have your life and I have mine. I'm sorry its gotten to this point, its partly my fault. I'm waiting for that spark to make things interesting again. I'm afraid to let you go.
Curiosity.
I had a growing urge to befriend you. It happened. I'm not sure how to take it. I feel bad at times when you make jokes - I feel as if I have to laugh, if not, I offend you. Yet at the same time, I don't regret it. You make me remember that even the smallest things in life can make me smile.
Loop.
How do you do it? We have the same main problem in life, yet you're able to move forward and do everything I wish my teenage years were filled with. I don't think I'll ever be able to be like you and over come this obstacle. Mad kudos for you.
